So tomorrow is January 1st, 2011. I'll be going on to college in 2011, graduating high school. I should be excited. I'm looking forward to it, sure, but I'd rather just curl up in bed and read tonight. Being antisocial is not a rare trait I seem to exhibit during the holidays. I end up looking forward to days where I can start fresh and be independent. Where I am an older, more mature person. And the petty dramas of high school and life in general do not hinder my happiness.
I don't know if that would be considered a "New Years Resolution". Resolutions are meant to break after a few days. So maybe this new outlook will simply just be, well, a new outlook. And it will be difficult for me to do. Because I am just so emotional and I care a bit too much. Maybe I care about myself a bit too much.
Today the only thing I'm wearing around my neck is a scarf, by the way. And my phone has been nowhere near me. And I feel fine. I just need a break from life. Talking and screaming and crying and just trying to be included.
I'm just so tired.
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